well despite what some people may think, i’m always trying to better myself as a person. I think we all strive (hopefully) to better ourselves one way or the other. We all have those times when we feel a fire within us to achieve our inner goals and become who we can be …yada yada, like the new year resolutions to stop using swear words, or say yes or no more often, to be more confident etc. now my question is, why does it burn out so quick?

Won’t it be nice to be able to keep that self improvement fire burning. I strongly believe that we are not fully aware of what our brains are capable of. we are smart enough to trick OUR OWN brains into believing something esle, for example temperature variations at key parts of your body will alter the brains temperature regulation. however simple this maybe, its the concept that is extraordinary.

So why exactly can’t we keep our inspirations, new year resolutions, feelin of wanting to get the James Bond swagger after wathing Quantom of Solace? how can we mitigate the decay of inspiration, or better yet any feeling. its like we accept the stigma of saying “that’s just how i am” or sayings like “you cant teach an old dog new tricks”. ya there may be tricks or therapy that already exist to achieve out goals, but why cant this be something from within. i’m not really talkin about passions, cuz those burn forever, i’m talkin about the rest of us who want something but not the passion to achieve it at all costs.

Personally, i think the key thing is retaining the value of  the goal. That is  the difficult part, because as we begin to strive towards the goal and meet obstacles, we begin to question the value of the goal or change. and once that happens, the costs begin to overshadow the benefits which may eventually lead to a waved white flag. It then comes back later when thoughts are triggered of life with the change and u feel inspired once more and the cycle repeats again. i’m sure this isn’t new to anyone. The truth is that no one likes “hardship” and we always look for the easiest route out of it (its our survival instinct) and the route is give up.  Its so easy, because its affectin noone but u, and usu noone else will find out…so easy. but lol we are the one’s losing. So i believe the key now is to learn to associate “hardship”, no matter the form, with something else other than a painful step to a goal.

so what i’m trying to learn is to associate my feelings with things that wont force my brain into a defense tactic, because the only thing u should be fighting are the obstacles not your will…the rest is just style freein’! (makes no sense but sounds good, deal with it)